What do I do?

Is murder illegal when the person being murdered deserves it??? Because if so than I won't get to properly express my anger at Phillip right now.

He is marrying Alexis...for reals this time they are going through with it. How do I know this? Oh let me tell you. HE sent me a TEXT saying that we needed to "talk" so I (being the idiot that I am) agreed to meet with him at our old hang out spot. When I showed up he was there with Alexis and they together told me that they are getting married. HE AMBUSHED ME!!!!!!! And at the very spot he proposed to me at! The nerve of that man! Alexis looked about ready to pee her pants when they first told me and when I saw the ring on her finger I just about wanted to vomit...he gave her MY ring! THE RING HE BOUGHT FOR ME!

Okay I know I gave it back and he has a right to give it to whomever he wants...but really the way he is going about doing all of this....AAAGH! I am going to Idaho in about two minutes to pick up Becky at BYU-Idaho and we are going to figure this out because Alexis had the audacity to ask me to help her with her flower arrangements.

...I agreed to help but ONLY because her family aren't members like mine aren't and I know how it feels to not have their support. I pity her, but it doesn't mean we are going to be friends or anything or that I am at all pleased, but she is going to need the help and I have the experience...Becky is going to be PISSED when she finds out which means I won't say anything til I absolutely have to. I should probably bring Jess along to control Becky for me. UGH why am I such a fool?!

Nikki