Can I just say that I have decided to go anti-love? Yeah that's right I am going to be AGAINST love for...well forever and I really mean it this time! Why on Earth would I want to put myself through the torture that poor Nikki is going through and the icky morning sickness that Jess has...even though that part only lasts for not very long I hear. I have been so in love with the whole idea of finding a guy and marrying him and all that jazz that I am starting to crack under the pressure of it all! I mean I feel so pressured to go out and get married and have kids and it all is just driving me nuts! Sometimes I feel like people look at me and see my whole purpose here on earth is to get married and have kids. Being a single LDS female can be really rough. I look at Jess and I see how happy she is and I want it yeah, but than I see Nikki, and in my opinion she isn't one who would be suited for married life at a young age. People she is one of the free-est spirits I have ever met and this whole romance and love thing is caging her in.
Why would I want that for myself? I know marriage isn't some kind of prison or anything, but when you are young and you have a ton of fire in you and you want to go out into the world and explore it...well it can be hard when people expect you to be on the search for the guy you are going to spend eternity with. There are things that you can't do when you are in your 30s and 40s that you can do in your 20s...not really sure what that means but I heard someone say that once. The point of what they were saying is that we can't be afraid to be single and live life as if we didn't even have to get married.
I do want to get married and have kids one day...heck I wouldn't mind just having a boyfriend right now. I just worry that by getting married young I could miss out on an entirely different life.
Tis a lot to think about.
Laters my Gators,
Becky
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