Valentine's Schmalentines...

I think Valentine's Day is the biggest joke ever. Seriosuly who knows the history of it anyways? I mean seriously Not many people know the story of St. Valentine and what he did for people.

Now Becky is trying to get me to go on some date with some random guy and celebrate the fact that instead of getting married soon I am single and covered in bruises. No amount of candy message hearts and paper Valentines is going to make me look forward to going back to the Single's Branch and facing the dating world again. I think it is too soon. I know Jess wants me to get out of the hospital and I know that everyone wants me to keep moving forward, but I can I please just have some time to myself without guys?

I am going to disappear to Temple Square for awhile and just enjoy myself. Hang with the missionaries and with my biggest greatest brother ever Jesus Christ! He has been a big help lately and I know I need to spend some one on one time with Him and Our Father. I just might hit up the Joseph Smith Movie as well. I haven't been alone on my own since the fight and I think everyone is trying to keep a close eye on me. I am really struggling right now and at times it is hard to breathe.

No I am not suicidal or anything I just am feeling really horrible right now. I had fallen and fallen hard you know? To end up where I am right now just....makes me really pissed at the adversary. I know he had a hand in this and I just want to punch him.

Love, Peace, and Chicken Grease,
Nikki