I think Valentine's Day is the biggest joke ever. Seriosuly who knows the history of it anyways? I mean seriously Not many people know the story of St. Valentine and what he did for people.
Now Becky is trying to get me to go on some date with some random guy and celebrate the fact that instead of getting married soon I am single and covered in bruises. No amount of candy message hearts and paper Valentines is going to make me look forward to going back to the Single's Branch and facing the dating world again. I think it is too soon. I know Jess wants me to get out of the hospital and I know that everyone wants me to keep moving forward, but I can I please just have some time to myself without guys?
I am going to disappear to Temple Square for awhile and just enjoy myself. Hang with the missionaries and with my biggest greatest brother ever Jesus Christ! He has been a big help lately and I know I need to spend some one on one time with Him and Our Father. I just might hit up the Joseph Smith Movie as well. I haven't been alone on my own since the fight and I think everyone is trying to keep a close eye on me. I am really struggling right now and at times it is hard to breathe.
No I am not suicidal or anything I just am feeling really horrible right now. I had fallen and fallen hard you know? To end up where I am right now just....makes me really pissed at the adversary. I know he had a hand in this and I just want to punch him.
Love, Peace, and Chicken Grease,
Nikki
8.2.10
Valentine's Day!!!
My DEAREST readers!
Hello to you all from me, JESS!!!! Yes sadly I am having to write this all down on paper because the stinky doctors say that a laptop is not allowed into my room. :( But LUCKILY for me Becky is going to type the letter up EXACTLY as I write it on the paper.
I made her promise to do it. Anywhoo I am soooooo glad to be back and writing to all you loverly people. What isn't so loverly is that I am in a stinky hospital because of being too skinny for someone having TWINS!!!! I know right?! I just about peed my hospital gown when I found out! Derek and I are so EXCITED! We get a boy AND a girl in one shot! Holy Crap though I just realized we are going to need a bigger apartment because we could fit one baby barely, but now TWO babies are coming and oh my goodness that is going to be INSANE! TWO BABIES!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH! Needless to say that I pretty much think Heavenly Father is amazing for blessing us with two of His children at the same time.
So yeah Nikki basically is totally my hero. I was not there when she beat the living daylights out of that creep, but I did get to see a brilliant re-enactment from my husband and brothers. Let me tell you I for one HATE HATE HATE guys who hit women and second I HATE HATE HATE when men abuse the priesthood. Derek says that he will most likely be excommunicated or something. I say "Amen" to that! Any man who holds the priesthood knows better than to use it as some sort of holding power over another person, you can't use the priesthood to take away someone's agency. Ladies NEVER let some stupid guy boss you around just because he has the priesthood. If he does, he isn't worthy of it. Derek would never try to assert his authority over me without any room for compromise. Now he does lead and guide and make decisions that I don't question, but that is because when he is praying about something I am right there with him praying and we both discuss the impressions we received and what direction we think we should take. It is a partnership, NOT a dictatorship.
If ANY guy is making you feel like you are less than a Daughter of a King, he is NOT worth it. Let me repeat...NOT WORTH IT!
So what is everyone doing for Valentine's Day? Becky is trying to convince Nikki to go out on a double date with her. Becky got asked out by Nikki's elder who baptized her....not Mayson, but the other one. Snap I know his name, but I can't recall it! Anyways we are trying to get Nikki to go out and have a non committal type of date you know? Nothing serious, just to get her out of the hospital and into the world. She hasn't left since I have been in here! Derek brought her suitcase and brings her stuff and sh is basically living here with me until I get out. Derek has to work and so do my brothers, so Nikki has been staying here to keep me company. I love her dearly, but she needs to get out.
Well I should be home by Friday of this week. *fingers crossed* I am WAY WAY WAY excited and THRILLED that I am doing better. I love you all and I am touched by all of your support and concern for us. We think about you all daily and we love hearing from you!
*MUAH*
Loves and fluffs,
Jess
P.S. I am going to try and get some sonograms up here for you all to see!
Hello to you all from me, JESS!!!! Yes sadly I am having to write this all down on paper because the stinky doctors say that a laptop is not allowed into my room. :( But LUCKILY for me Becky is going to type the letter up EXACTLY as I write it on the paper.
I made her promise to do it. Anywhoo I am soooooo glad to be back and writing to all you loverly people. What isn't so loverly is that I am in a stinky hospital because of being too skinny for someone having TWINS!!!! I know right?! I just about peed my hospital gown when I found out! Derek and I are so EXCITED! We get a boy AND a girl in one shot! Holy Crap though I just realized we are going to need a bigger apartment because we could fit one baby barely, but now TWO babies are coming and oh my goodness that is going to be INSANE! TWO BABIES!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH! Needless to say that I pretty much think Heavenly Father is amazing for blessing us with two of His children at the same time.
So yeah Nikki basically is totally my hero. I was not there when she beat the living daylights out of that creep, but I did get to see a brilliant re-enactment from my husband and brothers. Let me tell you I for one HATE HATE HATE guys who hit women and second I HATE HATE HATE when men abuse the priesthood. Derek says that he will most likely be excommunicated or something. I say "Amen" to that! Any man who holds the priesthood knows better than to use it as some sort of holding power over another person, you can't use the priesthood to take away someone's agency. Ladies NEVER let some stupid guy boss you around just because he has the priesthood. If he does, he isn't worthy of it. Derek would never try to assert his authority over me without any room for compromise. Now he does lead and guide and make decisions that I don't question, but that is because when he is praying about something I am right there with him praying and we both discuss the impressions we received and what direction we think we should take. It is a partnership, NOT a dictatorship.
If ANY guy is making you feel like you are less than a Daughter of a King, he is NOT worth it. Let me repeat...NOT WORTH IT!
So what is everyone doing for Valentine's Day? Becky is trying to convince Nikki to go out on a double date with her. Becky got asked out by Nikki's elder who baptized her....not Mayson, but the other one. Snap I know his name, but I can't recall it! Anyways we are trying to get Nikki to go out and have a non committal type of date you know? Nothing serious, just to get her out of the hospital and into the world. She hasn't left since I have been in here! Derek brought her suitcase and brings her stuff and sh is basically living here with me until I get out. Derek has to work and so do my brothers, so Nikki has been staying here to keep me company. I love her dearly, but she needs to get out.
Well I should be home by Friday of this week. *fingers crossed* I am WAY WAY WAY excited and THRILLED that I am doing better. I love you all and I am touched by all of your support and concern for us. We think about you all daily and we love hearing from you!
*MUAH*
Loves and fluffs,
Jess
P.S. I am going to try and get some sonograms up here for you all to see!
7.2.10
Beauty From Pain
Hey all it is me Nikki. Now Becky told you all what happened with what's his face and everything. I was reading some comments and I pretty much decided that I was going to tell everyone how it went down and to give an update on Jess.
Well all of my family aren't members and they had been pretty upset that we were going to get married in the temple and that they couldn't be there. We talked and I said I wanted a ring ceremony and he totally agreed and we were planning on it, writing our own little vows and stuff and we were going to have Jess's dad talk about the importance of temple marriage. Now I am not sure how or why he changed his mind, but he got really mad when I brought it up to talk about what we were going to say and if we were going to make it as much like a regular wedding as possible. He went off about my family and how they don't deserve to even be a part of our wedding and how I wouldn't be able to talk to them and see them again. I told him to lay off my family and he started yelling at me telling me that he holds the priesthood and I have to listen to what he says. Okay first off you never say that to any woman and second we (as daughters of our Heavenly Father) do not have to follow a priesthood leader if they are leading us down paths that we are not comfortable with and thirdly my patriarchal blessing has some pretty strict man guidelines that he was breaking. When I told him that he went and hit me in the face! I looked at him in shock and said we were over and idk really why but he just lunged at me and was starting to hit me again so I hauled out and beat the crap out of him.
I have been in fights before (BEFORE I joined the church mind you) and growing up in an abusive household you learn how to defend yourself. I fight dirty if I have to but mainly I do self-defense stuff. Now I only have a few bruises here and there, but he has a broken arm, two black eyes, a fractured hip bone, and his left ankle is broken in too many places for the doctor's to count. All in all the fight lasted maybe ten minutes before we were found and pulled apart....well I was pulled off him. Derek and Jess's brothers came after Becky heard screaming and no one was answering the door. I have filed charges against him and I am not in any legal trouble since it was self-defense.
So there you all have it.
OH and we found out that Jess is having twins!!!!! Yeah all those tests they have been doing have revealed she has a boy and a girl growing in her! Apparently her low weight was causing premature labor or something like that. I think it also had to do with the fact that she has been sick as well. Not really sure but they said she should be fine from now on, but she will have doctor's visits every week just to make sure she is 100% We are all so excited for her and she is on cloud nine right now!
I want you all to know that even though I ended up not getting married and beating the crap out of my ex-fiance, I still know that not all guys are the same. There are decent and genuinely nice guys out there who won't try to dominate unworthily and who will consider you (and me) their greatest treasure. Yes there are creeps and jerks and guys who deserve what is coming to them, but we shouldn't judge against all of them based on the few a-holes (excuse the lanugage) out there. I have been praying a lot for understanding and for help through this. I know that Heavenly Father wants the best for me and that He doesn't want me to give up hope in all of this. It has been an experience since joining the church, not all of it good, but I still know that the Church is true and that I have a big brother and heavenly parents who loves me and are watching over me.
Don't lose hope or faith our dear readers. Keep smiling and remember that with darkness comes light. Always search for the good in the world.
Love, Peace, and Chicken Grease,
Nikki
P.S.- In reality though I am not as collected as this posting sounds, but with the support I am getting the burden of pain is not so heavy.
Well all of my family aren't members and they had been pretty upset that we were going to get married in the temple and that they couldn't be there. We talked and I said I wanted a ring ceremony and he totally agreed and we were planning on it, writing our own little vows and stuff and we were going to have Jess's dad talk about the importance of temple marriage. Now I am not sure how or why he changed his mind, but he got really mad when I brought it up to talk about what we were going to say and if we were going to make it as much like a regular wedding as possible. He went off about my family and how they don't deserve to even be a part of our wedding and how I wouldn't be able to talk to them and see them again. I told him to lay off my family and he started yelling at me telling me that he holds the priesthood and I have to listen to what he says. Okay first off you never say that to any woman and second we (as daughters of our Heavenly Father) do not have to follow a priesthood leader if they are leading us down paths that we are not comfortable with and thirdly my patriarchal blessing has some pretty strict man guidelines that he was breaking. When I told him that he went and hit me in the face! I looked at him in shock and said we were over and idk really why but he just lunged at me and was starting to hit me again so I hauled out and beat the crap out of him.
I have been in fights before (BEFORE I joined the church mind you) and growing up in an abusive household you learn how to defend yourself. I fight dirty if I have to but mainly I do self-defense stuff. Now I only have a few bruises here and there, but he has a broken arm, two black eyes, a fractured hip bone, and his left ankle is broken in too many places for the doctor's to count. All in all the fight lasted maybe ten minutes before we were found and pulled apart....well I was pulled off him. Derek and Jess's brothers came after Becky heard screaming and no one was answering the door. I have filed charges against him and I am not in any legal trouble since it was self-defense.
So there you all have it.
OH and we found out that Jess is having twins!!!!! Yeah all those tests they have been doing have revealed she has a boy and a girl growing in her! Apparently her low weight was causing premature labor or something like that. I think it also had to do with the fact that she has been sick as well. Not really sure but they said she should be fine from now on, but she will have doctor's visits every week just to make sure she is 100% We are all so excited for her and she is on cloud nine right now!
I want you all to know that even though I ended up not getting married and beating the crap out of my ex-fiance, I still know that not all guys are the same. There are decent and genuinely nice guys out there who won't try to dominate unworthily and who will consider you (and me) their greatest treasure. Yes there are creeps and jerks and guys who deserve what is coming to them, but we shouldn't judge against all of them based on the few a-holes (excuse the lanugage) out there. I have been praying a lot for understanding and for help through this. I know that Heavenly Father wants the best for me and that He doesn't want me to give up hope in all of this. It has been an experience since joining the church, not all of it good, but I still know that the Church is true and that I have a big brother and heavenly parents who loves me and are watching over me.
Don't lose hope or faith our dear readers. Keep smiling and remember that with darkness comes light. Always search for the good in the world.
Love, Peace, and Chicken Grease,
Nikki
P.S.- In reality though I am not as collected as this posting sounds, but with the support I am getting the burden of pain is not so heavy.
5.2.10
What the Fudge?
So basically we have all been MIA for awhile...soooo many things have happened. Oh and by the way this is Becky writing. I am not at my computer right now so I couldn't put up my lovely little icon. Anyways back to our lives. Well Nikki's engagement to Mr. Incredible fell through. Yeah she found out some rather not good things about him that apparently no one knew about and she had to break things off. Total and complete ruin is what she is in and the rest of us are in shock. Turns out Mr. Incredible has a mean streak in him. They got into a fight over whether to have a ring ceremony or not (Nikki wanted one for her non-member family) and some words were said and he hauled out and hit Nikki. She still has the bruises from it, but he will be in a wheelchair for awhile. Growing up Nikki was abused and she swore no one would hit her and get away with it again. Stupid Idiot found out too late that Nikki can hold her own and than some in a fight. She is taking a little break from writing right now but she will be back...probably by next week.
Anyways I have been up here in Idaho taking night classes and working. I finally got a job up here after what seemed like an eternity of jub hunting. Let me tell you that it sure is nice to be working and getting money! The dating situation hasn't really changed much. I am still single and too busy to even notice. I am learning to snowboard! How flipping cool is that?! Okay so I am a desert rat and I think snow is magical and I love it...get over it already! I have gotten pretty sick though with colds and coughs, but luckily for me my roommates are all pretty well paranoid about dying of sickness so they stock up on every kind of cold medicine possible! It has been a really busy time, especially lately. The most important thing going on right now for me is trying to keep our little group together. Nikki is in and out of it on a daily basis and she keeps disappearing into her mind and Jess is...well keep reading to find out.
Jess is still bed ridden. She almost lost the baby and had to be rushed to the hospital over the weekend. I am in the cafeteria right now of said hospital typing as Derek and Nikki eat the nasty hospital food. Blegh! We all were really worried about Jess and I drove down asap. Nikki was up here anyways visiting when it all went down. She just started having these sharp pains and was bleeding really bad and she passed out all of a sudden. Nikki and Derek rushed to the hospital and the next thing they knew there was billions of doctors and nurses running around attending to Jess and finally they were told that the baby and Jess were fine and that she would need to stay in the hospital under surveillance for two weeks. They don't know what happened, but they are trying to fatten her up because she had been losing weight instead of gaining it despite her healthy apetite. Jess is doing fine though and as soon as she can she will write, she promises. In fact I think she is writing in a notebook and then going to have me type it for her. Crazy woman that one is!
Our deepest apologies to our readers for not keeping up with our blog and facebook page. Life had been going so well for us and than suddenly it was like this huge dumping of horrible out of nowhere. Through it all though we have held on to our faith and each other. We hope that you all are alright and we send you are love.
Laters My Gators,
Becky
Anyways I have been up here in Idaho taking night classes and working. I finally got a job up here after what seemed like an eternity of jub hunting. Let me tell you that it sure is nice to be working and getting money! The dating situation hasn't really changed much. I am still single and too busy to even notice. I am learning to snowboard! How flipping cool is that?! Okay so I am a desert rat and I think snow is magical and I love it...get over it already! I have gotten pretty sick though with colds and coughs, but luckily for me my roommates are all pretty well paranoid about dying of sickness so they stock up on every kind of cold medicine possible! It has been a really busy time, especially lately. The most important thing going on right now for me is trying to keep our little group together. Nikki is in and out of it on a daily basis and she keeps disappearing into her mind and Jess is...well keep reading to find out.
Jess is still bed ridden. She almost lost the baby and had to be rushed to the hospital over the weekend. I am in the cafeteria right now of said hospital typing as Derek and Nikki eat the nasty hospital food. Blegh! We all were really worried about Jess and I drove down asap. Nikki was up here anyways visiting when it all went down. She just started having these sharp pains and was bleeding really bad and she passed out all of a sudden. Nikki and Derek rushed to the hospital and the next thing they knew there was billions of doctors and nurses running around attending to Jess and finally they were told that the baby and Jess were fine and that she would need to stay in the hospital under surveillance for two weeks. They don't know what happened, but they are trying to fatten her up because she had been losing weight instead of gaining it despite her healthy apetite. Jess is doing fine though and as soon as she can she will write, she promises. In fact I think she is writing in a notebook and then going to have me type it for her. Crazy woman that one is!
Our deepest apologies to our readers for not keeping up with our blog and facebook page. Life had been going so well for us and than suddenly it was like this huge dumping of horrible out of nowhere. Through it all though we have held on to our faith and each other. We hope that you all are alright and we send you are love.
Laters My Gators,
Becky
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