Oh Mr. Incredible

So I know this sounds strange, but yeah I have prayed and fasted and prayed about Mr. Incredible and I waaaaay beyond what I normally do when praying about important things, because a girl has got to be sure right?? I wouldn't want to end up dating and eventually marrying him and it turns out I shouldn't have or something. You don't want to screw with eternity people.

Anyways like I said I have been praying and I have decided.....

......I honestly...AAGH! Becky isn't here to type out what I am trying to say like she would normally do when I myself can't do it so now I end up rambling and beating around the bush trying to ignore the fact that it is there without completely removing it from my sight!

Let us just say that perhaps the answer I have been recieving loud and clear has been really really really positive, like Heavenly Father is saying "GET ON THAT" but in a nicer and more sophisticated kind of way. Personally I don't think He would ever yell that to anyone. If I am wrong He will surely let me know after I have been twinkled.

I sometimes think about how other girls go through this process of praying and such. I haven't been a member for very long really and all the other girls in the ward seem to have this whole finding a guy thing down pat! I mean one girl got engaged after one week of dating and they ahve been happily married for a few years now. How does that happen? I am scared of moving too slow and moving too fast. How are we supposed to know the right speed? How are we supposed to know that we can marry a guy after only dating for one week or even a few years? Yes I do know that prayer has a lot to do with it, but how does one really truly know?

Jess says that she knew Derek was the one because when she met him she got this feeling like he was what had been missing her whole life. I get that feeling when I see one of those extra large Reese's Peanut Butter Cups in the gas station! To be completely honest here, which is kinda the whole point of this blog, I do feel that way about Mr. Incredible. I know I haven't really known him that long, but in that short amount of time I have been happier than any other time in my life, second to my baptism of course.

This is what scares me. What if I am actually falling for him? Can I really afford to give my heart out again? Seeing Phil and Alexis a lot has really put things into perspective for me. I was once in Alexis' shoes, planning a wedding and everything with Phil and I was happy and content, but I didn't feel like I do now just merely considering a relationship with Mr. Incredible. My head is all turned around right now, but all I know is that tomorrow when Becky comes down she is bringing me one big Christmas Present that I definitely plan on opening before Christmas.

Love, Peace, and Chicken Grease,

Nikki